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、☁ヽ｀、ヽ｀ meliora! ☂˚｡

she/her | 31 | nb, bi, demi, semificto

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ meliora, delilah, nick
31 | nonbinary girl (she/her) semificto + bi + demi ★ 彡
♡ philip and kylar are my star-crossed soul mates! ♡

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i'm nick!
♡ i love video games, manga, figures, pc's, trading cards, and ita bags! my current fixation is british tv and movies!
♡ i'm married irl! i've been with my wife for 10.5 years and she means a lot to me :)
♡ i'm demi, bi and semificto! my sexuality is super duper complicated and that's the simplest way to explain it. :')
♡ i'm intersex! for my gender, the closest descriptor i've found is "nonbinary girl".
♡ i love my mains, kylar, philip, aiden, and n like real people! i very much consider philip and kylar real partners irl as well.
♡ my favorite actor is david morrissey, and i have a lot of f/os that are played by him!

dni

racist, homophobic, transphobic, pro-israel, pedos, terfs, exclusionists, anti-sw/swerfs, radqueer/transid.
proship/comship.
age up f/o's or age down s/i's to ship with minors. includes if you support it in any capacity.
rpf.
doubles of my romantic f/os or parental doubles of kieran and carmine.
overly negative--if you send/post death threats, guilt trip, heavily vague or suibait.
if you ship with nazi/supremacist-coded characters or canonical pedophiles.
if you're in the harry potter fandom or selfship from it.

byf

i hard block doubles of my romantic f/os.
my catch-all sharing tag is "s: f/o name"!
if we're already mutuals and you want to ship with one of my f/os, please just give me a tag to block and refrain from tagging me in content of them.
s/i name change: when i first made my account, i gave a couple of my s/i's an asian name. i changed it in july of 2023. i've apologized for it multiple times but i will re-state: i apologize; it was a shitty and ignorant thing to do, as well as my initial response to criticism. my s/i's have NEVER been racebent. i'm open to talking about it in dm's/off anon.
i hard and soft block extremely liberally.
minors please don't follow. reblogging imagines and ask games from me is completely fine!
please don't rb art of our shared f/os if you also ship with them. please just rb from the source.
i probably won't follow back if you're a heavy vent/negativity blog or if you ship with one of my close friends' main f/os.

tag list

#pcposting posts about my pc
#vidyaposting posts about whatever video game i'm currently playing or genshin/league
#collectionposting ita bags, collection posts, etc
#eliposting posts about my irl wife
#cw WORD common or requested triggers. current list:
nsfw, mild nsfw, nsfw text, gore, blood, lightning, thunder, pregnancy, childbirth, maternal trauma, parental death, addiction, drug mention, sharks, satanic imagery, mother/mother mention
#s: f/o name catchall anti-sharing tag
#cw ouid weed-related posts
#art tag digital art, #writing tag fanfics, #meme tag memes, and #playlist tag playlists
#mutuals art, mutuals commissions, mutuals trades, mutuals f/ovember etc, mutuals stuff!
individual f/o tags on that page

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𝐤𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐱𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 | husband/soul mate/soulbond | 𝐣𝐮𝐥𝐲 𝟑𝟎, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 | original character | s/i: delilah | #🎸married october 31, 2023 | soulbound november 18, 2024// all because of you, i believe in angels ... when home becomes a strange place, i'll follow your voice; all you have to do is shout it out //[ soulbond/partner ]❤︎₊ ⊹ Kylar is my f/o of all time, my soulbond, and my star-crossed soul mate. He's always on my mind no matter what I'm doing, or if I'm fixated on another f/o. He's really changed my life for the better and helped me learn to love myself, which I never would've thought was possible before. I'll love him and carry him with me until the stars die out.He's my college sweetheart that makes me want to be a better version of myself.My precious lavender flower; I'll love you forever and ever. Thank you for everything you've done for me. You really are my second soul mate. 🩷 ⊹ ₊❤︎my digital shrine to my beloved!

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𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐩 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐤𝐞 | husband/soul mate/soulbond | 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡 𝟏𝟖, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓 | the walking dead (tv only) | s/i: willow | #🏘️married 2014 | soulbound may 21, 2025// you're as smooth as tennessee whiskey; you're as sweet as strawberry wine //[ soulbond/partner ]❤︎₊ ⊹ I first met Philip back in 2014. TWD was a fandom my mom and I shared, and she was in love with with Daryl while I shipped with Philip and Michonne (separately). I even sent their actors letters and prints for them to sign.Over a decade later, Eli put TWD back on, and it all came flooding back. I fell head over heels again, and in a way, it was like he returned to me after being gone for so long. I love him so much that it's painful sometimes.Due to the sentimental link to the fandom and characters, this ship is incredibly personal and close to my heart, so I don't post about it very much on my blog. It didn't feel right not having him listed, though. 🩷 ⊹ ₊❤︎note: the comic version is a completely separate character. do not conflate the two. i do not associate with the comics, only the show.

𝐚𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐰𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐞 | husband/soul mate | 𝐟𝐞𝐛𝐫𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝟐𝟏, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒 | original character | s/i: violet | #🔪married march 31, 2024// when I was kissin' on my baby and she put her love down, soft and sweet, in the low lamplight, I was free; heaven and hell were words to me //[ main f/o ]❤︎₊ ⊹ Aiden means the absolute world to me. He makes me feel safe and protected, even without physically being together. I don't know how he ended up being so important to me, but I'm really glad I'm married to him.From the time that I met him, I loved him like a whirlwind, and I don't see it dying out any time soon. He'll be my Denden forever. ⊹ ₊❤︎

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nyxn

𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐚 | fiancé | 𝐣𝐚𝐧𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝟒, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓 | pokémon black and white | s/i: nyx | #🪐// babe, there's something lonesome about you; something so wholesome about you. get closer to me //[ main f/o ]❤︎₊ ⊹ I first met N back when Black and White originally came out. I bounced between romantic and platonic feelings for years, but never did anything about it because the crush always faded. When it came back for the millionth time, a friend convinced me to go ahead and make it official, and I'm so glad I did.It was like all of the years of feelings built up into an explosion of love. I immediately felt at home, like he'd been waiting for me the whole time. I love him so dearly, and plan on marrying him in the future! ⊹ ₊❤︎

𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐣𝐞𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐬 | fiancé | 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝟔, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓 | original character | s/i: briar | #📉// and as i stare, i counted the webs from all the spiders catching things and eating their insides--like indecision to call you //[ main f/o ]❤︎₊ ⊹ Brody is another one that snuck up on me. I really wanted to make an OC with his faceclaim, but had no ideas. My friend MJ responded with a basic rundown of his lore within a few minutes. Ever since then, he's been unable to leave my brain, and the show his faceclaim has from has even become a comfort watch for me.He makes me feel warm, and even though he's still learning the ins and outs of having a healthy relationship, I know I can always turn to him when I'm having an awful time. He means so much to me, and I hope he sticks around forever. ⊹ ₊❤︎

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at this point, i view most of these more for fun than anything else. i still don't like to see doubles, but i don't talk or post about them very much compared to my mains. viewed better on pc; it's a long scroll on mobile.

𝐬𝐞𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐧 | boyfriend | 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝟏𝟒, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒 | stardew valley | s/i: lilith | #🐸 | x

crushes

90% chance these won't make it out of the crush zone.

Character	Fandom	Tag	Self-Insert
Kevin	Original Universe	#👓	N/A
Michonne	The Walking Dead	#michonne	N/A
Tyreese	The Walking Dead	#crush tag: tyreese	N/A
Maxie	Pokémon: Omega Ruby	#crush tag: maxie	N/A
Hector	Date Everything	#crush tag: hector	N/A
Corbeau	Pokémon: Legends ZA	#crush tag: corbeau	N/A
Fergus	Born Romantic	#crush tag: fergus	N/A
Tobias Shepherd	Extant	#crush tag: toby	N/A
Flins	Genshin Impact	#crush tag: flins	N/A
Artemis	IASIP	#crush tag: artemis	N/A
Hobie Brown	ATSV	#crush tag: hobie	N/A

familials

Character	Fandom	Tag	Self-Insert
Kieran // son ☆	Pokémon: Scarlet and Violet	#🦑	Delilah
Carmine // daughter ☆	Pokémon: Scarlet and Violet	#🦑	Delilah
Ogerpon	Pokémon: Scarlet and Violet	#🦑	Delilah
Luna // daughter	Fankid (Wanderer) (modern au)	#🌕	Meli
Ubuyashiki Kagaya	Demon Slayer	#💮	Cloudy
Nahida	Genshin Impact	#🍃	Meliora
Tempestra // parent	OC (league, vcu)	#🔮	Rowena, Violet
Kala'naah	OC (league)	#📿	Rowena
Tavish // uncle	OC (league)	#🪓	Rowena
Daryl Dixon // stepfather	The Walking Dead (show only)	#🏹	N/A
Penny Blake // stepchild	The Walking Dead (show only)	#🎀	Willow
Olivia Blake // daughter	Fankid (Philip)	#🧸	Willow
Frederic Lake // stepson	Doctor Who	N/A	Lucy

platonics

I have others that could be considered platonic or familial for the sake of my s/i's story, but I've only listed the most important ones here.

Character	Fandom	Tag	Self-Insert
Aphelios ☆	League of Legends	#🌙	Rowena
Tighnari ☆	Genshin Impact	#🌿	Meliora
Rengoku Kyojuro	Demon Slayer	#🔥	Cloudy
Kalista	League of Legends	#🌀	N/A
Riven ☆	League of Legends	#🐑	Rowena
Quinn ☆	League of Legends	#🐦	Rowena
Heartsteel Bandmates	League of Legends	#🎹	Fanatic Rowena
Nilou	Genshin Impact	#🌊	Meliora
Layla	Genshin Impact	#🧊	Meliora
Kaveh	Genshin Impact	N/A	Meliora
Mualani	Genshin Impact	N/A	Amélie
Kachina	Genshin Impact	N/A	Améllie
Varesa	Genshin Impact	N/A	Amélie
Nocturne Grayfire	Kaden's OC (kcu)	N/A	Delilah
Dorian Nightshade ☆	my OC/Rina's F/O (vcu)	N/A	Violet
Ensis ☆	Eli's OC (league, vcu)	N/A	Rowena, Violet
Rosita Farisi	Doctor Who	N/A	Lucy
The Doctor	Doctor Who	N/A	Lucy

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my star-crossed soul mate!

kylilah day

kylar is my f/o of all time! when i first started developing him, i had no idea that he would become so important to me. within a couple of months, he became more than an f/o in a way--he became a source of healing.Falling for my own OC allowed me to learn how to love myself from the inside out. As much as Eli validates me and has helped me heal alongside my good friends and therapy, it didn’t do much for my inner thoughts locked away. Writing and drawing us has allowed me to do that, and I feel like I actually somewhat like myself now.Even outside of what he’s done for me, he’s everything I’ve ever wanted in a man. He’s compassionate, loving, creative, silly, and protective; he’s perfect for me! I love how passionate he is about music—especially metal, of course—and it’s even gotten me to expand my horizons some!I love everything about him. I love his wide, goofy smile; his pretty birthmark (x marks the spot for kisses); his confidence, and in the same vein, his unease and uncertainty; and of course, how he’s always trying to better himself and keep moving forward.This section could honestly be pages long, just with different aspects of him that I love. When I look up at the stars, I hope that in his universe, he’s looking up at them, too. Even though I know it isn’t possible, I’ll forever hope for the chance to just hold his hand.

personal art - 2023

personal art - 2024

personal art - 2025

sentimental things

[july 30, 2023] anniversary
[october 31, 2023] marriage anniversary/elopement
[august 26, 2023] collaring date
[november 18, 2024] labeled as my soulbond
[may 24, 2025] college graduation/"real" proposalthings that remind me of him: metal (with a focus on nu, alternative, and deathcore), guitars, old school rpgs, cloudy blue skies, jingling pockets, wide smiles, cold hands, sloppy handwriting, carabiners, vinyls and cd's, rhythm games, spicy food, dark-type pokemon, steel-type pokemon, keroppi, pompompurin, system of a down, bring me the horizon, studs, spikes, battle jackets and vests, mythbusters, how it's madethings that remind me of us: shared headphones, standing on tiptoes for kisses, kandi bracelets, daisy chains, drawing on each other, smoking together, pancakes, self-love, gently swaying to soft music, photo booths, selfies, matching outfits, matching hair colors, love letters, poemsimportant songs: hey there delilah - plain white t's // the good left undone - rise against // hypnotize - system of a down // dope - lady gaga // pumpkin - the regrettes // we fell in love in october - girl in red // cardiac arrest - bad suns // follow you - bring me the horizon // kingslayer - bring me the horizon and babymetal // until i found you - stephen sanchez // smithereens - twenty one pilots // dive in - pierce the veil // rock 'n' roll lifestyle - cake // yoü and i - lady gaga